Life Landscapes

2011-03-09T01:29:00.002+08:00

About 4 years since I've written. I miss it.

Well, it's that time again...but not here and not now.

It'll be my hiding place...my writing will be my comfort and my solitude.

To have a written voice should suffice - just for me, for once.

2007-04-17T16:03:00.002+08:00

If I sit in my emptiness, will You reassure me of your presence?
If I weep in sorrow, will You relieve my pain?
If I laugh in pretense, will You see through my pain?
If I stare into oblivion, will You guard my mind?
If I give up hope, will You impel my heart to live?
If I wallow in my hopelessness, will You surrender me?
If I stagger in my walk, will you withdraw Your calling?
If I live in my deception, will you wrench my heart?
Are You there? ………Are You here?

Still in agony... but I'll wait.

In Your strength, I'll wait.

2007-04-03T13:21:00.000+08:00

Life has been cruel to me.... hmm, or should I say God?
Since my car accident last Sunday, the thought of my existance has been boggling me.
I knowwww... it was just an accident! But if not for my insurance, I would have had to fork out RM4K or more through my nose for the 3rd party's damage. Mine would probably cost another RM1.5K.
Never in my life have I felt that God had abandoned me to rot for no good reason. It hurt... BAD.

The DAMAGE: Dented bonnet, tilted bumper & 1x broken light

Next day (Monday), I had to take the day off to lodge a police report at State PJ which seems to mostly service road accidents. I kena scolded by some macho Malay officer for requesting for Lionel to come into the 'confession' booth with me... (it had to be the sternest looking guy in the the room!). Thing is... i neglected to see a sign placed outside the room stating that only those involved in the accident. Anyway, I thought Lionel was sorta indirectly involved in the accident so I asked for him to come in and teman me... not to my surprise, I got 'bam-boo-ed' like an idiot. The police office was asking me if I wanted to sit at his place la... said no one gave Lionel permission to enter and why I asked him to come in la... My heart was already aching for the cost of the damage and then God sent me such a 'kind' officer to handle my case. So whatever la...

After the rediculously embarrassing and horrible ordeal, Lionel brought me for sushi :) - HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY

Later in the evening, my dad asked me to photocopy my driving license for submission to the insurance agent on Tues morn. When I was at the shop, I realized that my license was not with me...nor was my I/C. I must've left it with that mean ol' police officer. My heart sank even deeper that day. I mean, not to justify my memory loss which all of you can attest to but I was already so intimidated by this 'En. S' that I just took whatever he gave me and quickly went to pay my summon. I prayed and prayed for it to be there.

Lionel then drove me to the police station again to check if it was there... but the police officers said it wasn't and told me to come by again the next morning to check with the relevant officers whom I liaised with earlier. Can you imagine how distraught I was??? VERY. It was very difficult for me to tell my dad since he's already upset over the car. But I had no choice but to face the music... which was horrible *bleagh* Do you know how it feels to disappoint your parents within such a short time span? Dreadful.
I couldn't sleep very well last nite, thinking about the 'what ifs' so I got up from bed to research on the processes of I/C and driving license renewals....you know...in case they really cannot find them. And that night, I prayed and prayed and finally, I felt the Holy Spirit saying "Trust the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge Him and He will make straight your path".

This morning, my mum drove me to the police station and it was no surprise, they said they couldn't find it and assured me that I must have misplaced it somewhere. I don't think my heart could sink any deeper. How am I going to do my insurance claim if I don't have those documents!!! My dad would kill me!!! So I politely requested for the police officers from the various departments to check thoroughly if my documents were with them. I mean, it wasn't like I hoping for them to ransack their office... just to look into their drawers, scatter some papers on their tables, check the lost & found area! I'd be satisfied with that....but noooo.... they had to rub it in and say irrelevant things like "u ni ah moi yang takut En. S tu kan? ahh...semalam u tak lawar...hari ni lawar pulak! U pakai macam ini cantik la..." *blink*blink*blink*blink* And they were all joking... It was so infuriating cos I NEED MY DOCUMENTS!@#!@$@#$#@$@# I was seriously about to get a major breakdown at that point....seriously. But thankfully, this particular police officer, En J, just told me "kan dah kata takde, moi... U bagi I u punya nombor talipon. Nanti bila En. S balik, saya tanya dia la". I was told that En. S would only come back to work on Thursday. GRrrRRrrr...

Next thing to do it lodge a police report on my lost I/C and license at that exact same police station. Even the police officer who helped me on my report was surprised and shook his head. WATTADOOOOO.....

After that, we went to Jabatan Penerangan Malaysia (JPN) to do my I/C which probably took about 30-45mins and RM50 for my renewal (temporary I/C...can only collect the new MyKad in 10days). After that, we went to Jabatan Pengangkutan Malaysia (JPJ) to do my driving license which took 15mins or so. Sigh... Unfortunately, I can't use the new driving license for my insurance claims submission cos the police report was based on the old number & validity period. So, I was told to go to the JPJ HQ at Padang Jawa (Shah Alam) to get a report on my old license information.

When we were about to arrive at the JPJ HQ, I received a phone call - it was from the police officer, En. J. The phone conversation went a lil like this "Cik Heah, kita sudah jumpa u punya I/C dan lesen. U mau datang ambil bila?" .... I was stoned.... *blink*blink*blink*blink* I wanted to say many things but I think the only words that came out were, "Nanti saya datang kutip" *DEEP SIGH*

We turned around, collected everything and I thanked En. J for getting my documents for me although it wasn't him who was handling my case. It was En. S - that mean ol' pork face.
Incidentally, he came back to the police station and as I walked out after thanking En. J, he shouted "Eleh...sombongnya dia...tak ucap terima kasih kepada saya pun!"... I actually turned around to ucap...but within a split second, I told myself to turn back and walk on. Why? Cos it was him who was keeping my documents and he was the reason why I had to waste petrol, valuable time and RM72 to re-do my documents.

I just smiled and walked away - HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY.

So God, if You're listening still... which You mostly likely are.... I've had a really bad week. Pleaseeeee give me a break!!! :(

I Carry Your Heart With Me (I Carry It In My Heart)

2007-02-12T16:36:00.002+08:00

On yet another droning Sunday night, I plonked myself on the living room sofa (on my mum's tummy...hehehe...) and glued my eyes on whatever channel is on... CINEMAX.
and we watched 'In Her Shoes'... a movie which I had earlier labelled as BORING.

I was right. It was indeed slow...but what the hoo... I enjoyed the feeling of being able to rest my head against my mum's bubbly belly (*tsk tsk tsk*)... just like the old days...

Anyhoo, it's about the love and conflict between two very different sisters yet they had a strong bond with one another (Cameron Diaz & Toni Collette). The older, mature sister (TC) who's constantly looking out for the younger sluttier one (CD). One fine day, they fought and went their separate ways. Strangely enough, they missed each other dearly but were just to proud to admit it...etc etc etc... They reconciled in the end but the fact that the dyslexic sister (played by CD) learned to read a poem at her sister's wedding (before the couple exchanged their vows) added all the power to the ending!

I cried more than I did for my korean drama series...it was so moving!

_____________________________

i carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it (anywhere i go you go, my dear;
and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)

i fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet)
i want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

....
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

Poem By E.E Cummings

_______________________________________

*meltssss**smiles*

Dedicated to all the lovey-dovies out there celebrating Valentine's Day!

The Black Dot & The Calling

2007-02-09T09:46:00.000+08:00

The Black Dot

Lately, I've just been looking back on some things in the past...

A couple of years back (or I'd like to think so...), when I was still in Royal Rangers, our commander illustrated something. She took out a blank piece of white A4 paper and later, used a black marker to draw a dot in the center of this paper.
Then she asked us, "What do you see?"
And I was wondering if was a trick question but I said anyway, "Black dot lor..."

But she told us to look closer and we looked closer and all we saw was just a BLACK DOT!!

Then she asked us this - Human beings are all like this piece of white paper. Question is why do we constantly MAGNIFY the small issues or bad habits in another person and so oblivious to see the wider aspect 'white area'... So simple moral and we take it for granted.

At many instances, I tend to jump into conclusions based on current situations and fail to see the better side of a person or the potential in a person. And there are times when I give people the benefit of the doubt and they continue to disappoint us. So how??

I can only ask for God's grace - to see them through His eyes.
And constantly & consciously point out to myself - who am I to judge anyone.

Crap! You know what God just said? - "Hold on! You'll be tested soon enough...."
Oh God, TEEM KAI???

The Calling
Another lesson from KLTI on Jonah -
We can be doing right things....but is it right?
Is what we are doing God's call?
Coincidentally, I've been thinking about the Junior Church Ministry and whether or not it is God's call for me to be in it.

And I've known it but I've never said it - It's not.

It would be something I can do but I know for sure it isn't what He wants me to do.

I'm still praying about what it is since it's just an inkling...
But I know it's not something I can run away from....which He reminded me in this week's lesson on Jonah.

How can you not be amazed at how He pieces everything together *sighssss*
YOU ARE AMAZING!!! XD

2006-11-07T22:35:00.002+08:00

I just heard this song after the longest time....!!! But the one I'm hearing now is the acoustic version...absolutely love it!

Walking After You - Foo Fighters
Tonight I'm tangled in my blanket of clouds
Dreaming aloud
Things just won't do without you, matter of fact
I'm on your back (3x)

If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you (2x)

If you'd accept surrender, I'll give up some more
Weren't you adored
I cannot be without you, matter of fact
I'm on your back (3x)

If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you (2x)

Another heart is cracked in two, I'm on your back

I cannot be without you, matter of fact
I'm on your back (3x)

If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you (x3)

Another heart is cracked in two, I'm on your back

Things just wont do without you, matter of fact
I'm on your back (3x)

If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you (x3)

the not-so-much-biz-trip

2006-10-22T23:47:00.000+08:00

Here are some pics from the island of Pee-Nen (Penang) when I was on a biz trip in August'06.

These oily, high-cholesterol goodies were initially the highlight of my trip! Don't they look absolutely delicious??!! You can find it along Lorong Selamat where you will notice some hawker stalls by the side of the road. And for this stall particularly, they require you to queue to place an order, wait & collect it to your table - yes, SELF SERVICE UNDER THE BLISTERING SUN!!
It was so good that we repeated & endured that ordeal twice!! And again the next day! Hehehe... YUMSSSSS!!! And not to mention that the prawns are HUMUNGOUS!

3 pix of the indigo walls:- Cheong Fatt Tze Mansion
We were also recommended to go to the Cheong Fatt Tze Mansion which is by far, the BEST local tour I've been to. They only limit to 2 tours everyday around the mansion and believe me, it is soooo worth every penny! It's not AT ALL boring... the tour conducter speaks very eloquently & she's the most excited tour conducter I've ever seen. I mean, she conducts these tours every single day and she's still so excited to explain the historic details of every room in the mansion! It was just an amazing experience!

The next 5 pics are from the Khoo Clan a.k.a Khoo Kongsi in Penang. Believe me, I felt as if I was on holiday instead of biz. My meetings were only in the mornings and after which, we'd rush off to sightsee! I love these historical places with these intricate details! Each historical place we went to had so much significance. I LOVE PENANG!!! The only thing I don't like about Penang are their roads! TAU-HEEN ahh!! Be careful when you travel to this part of the country - the streets are ONE-WAY!! Thank God we had a map... :)

Road trip, anyone? Hehehe...

2006-10-21T02:41:00.000+08:00

Previously on Life Landscapes...
....blah blah blah blah....family picture....blah blah blah....

Ok BloggerMates! There's nothing much to blog about...
Here are 10 of the latest happenings for me:-

1) It's 3:44am & I'm WIDE awake
2) It's the beginning of a 10-day holiday & i'm already bored...prob cos it's so late!
3) I've stopped watching my Korean drama series *pats self on back*
4) Waiting for 2 more Korean Drama Series' downloads to be completed soon before the restart *grins*
5) Learned the new online term - LOLI
(tell me what it is and i'll spend u a McDs sundae la!) It was darn funny when i heard itttt!
6) My chatterbox died on me so i don't intend to revive it cos i'm just too lazy
7) Playing Tiger Woods PGA Tour '07 game
8) Watching the few drama series: Lost, Desperate Housewives, Prison Break, House, The Nine, Heroes, Grey's Anatomy, One Tree Hill, Survivor, CSI. Hrm...so far, i think that's it lor...
9) I've switched my fav ice-cream from NewZealand Natural --> Baskin-Robbins!!! YoooOOmmmsSS!!! A MUST try would be Chocolate Mousse Royale esp. for you choco lovers!
10) The Hokkien term 'chu bee' which I've just learned to describe ME ;)
It basically just means CUTE... muahahahaa...

I think i'm gonna try to sleep now and wake up after 10am since that has proven to be impossible for the past couple of .... years.... I WANNA SLEEEP!!!! It's always either the sunlight shining through the glass panels while penetrating through the dumb curtain i bought from Ikea! OR it could very well be my mom's singing or my mad brother pounding on the door. I mean, seriously... i'm supposed apply strength to open my eyes, lift my blanket, drag my feet just to OPEN the door for someone to annoy me?!?! Seriously....

There should be more updates/pictures uploaded soon, i hope.

So stay tuned for the next episode of.... Life Landscapes....

2006-07-23T23:42:00.000+08:00

singing to "We Are Family..." :)
I ruvvv my family...
sometimes, they get on my nerves but...humph...guess that's what families do anyway... tsk tsk tsk...

2006-07-19T10:29:00.000+08:00

Wish I could post the mp3 on this post...
Anyway, hope the lyrics will bless/touch you as much as it has blessed me... :)
(Wanted to use AudioBlogger but i'd have to pay long distance call for that...crap!)

Written by: Anthony Evans
Song Title: Restore Me

On the outside
You think I'm alright
There's a smile on my face
Everything's okay

But on the inside there's a different story
I've stumbled down this road
And I've got so for the go
I'm a broken man
On my knees again
Longing for a touch from You
I need Your hand to...

Chorus
Restore me
I need your mercy
Take me
To the place I used to breathe
Use all the pain and the hurt
To do a greater work and
Restore me

I wore my mask
Running away from my past
Hiding all my scars
Thinking I'd gone too far
But He knew my pain
And He loved me just the same
He promised I'd be free
If I fell on my knees and cried

(Chorus)

Bridge:
Restore unto me the joy of my salvation
So I'll sing again the song you wrote for me
Give me a clean heart I want a brand new start
Like the moment when I first believed

(Chorus)

2006-07-04T14:57:00.000+08:00

familiarity breeds contempt

Your arrival was again discreet
You are an imagery of trickery
If you cherish bitterness, I'm not your muse
Already I'm weary, broken & afraid
Yet, somehow you don't get it!

You rejoice in your lame successes
To me, it's a bloody shame
You are saturated in disgrace & pain
And as you stand to poke lives into the flame
You only grow even more morbid & cold

Shove yourself in pubs or in the eyes of whores
But never show your face around here...EVER!!
Have you not taxed me enough?
Need you provoke me more?
Do you have to strip me of what's left of my dignity??!

I can only hope for you to rot with yourself
Stop lurking around like some innocent child who's lost his way
You may be subtle but we are more careful than you may perceive!
What builds that sense of achievement of yours should die...
Whatever erects that neediness should vanish!

You do not belong here.
You are like an illegal entry to a white garden.
Like a parcel wrongly delivered.
I deliberately want to rip you apart & throw you into the thorns where you belong.
But that exhilaration will only last a moment.
Cos you'll be back.

You have no name. A stranger. Yet I recognize the chills.
And again, I bid you goodbye but this time... IN TRIUMPH.

2006-06-11T23:50:00.000+08:00

Gongrats to Alex & Suet Yee!!

2006-06-01T23:37:00.000+08:00

OK. Since Cary posted most of the pics, i'll post what she didn't for variety sake! ;)

Jess & I @ Vietnam Kitchen

All Smiles :)

almost perfect pic (the 3rd try (after Sean kept zooming into her nose!!)

the limelight of the nite...after jess, of cos!

eyeing on the prize

sillies

@kukubar's booth

boys will be boys

2006-05-30T23:11:00.000+08:00

TWO BIRTHDAY WISHES to TWO SPECIAL PEOPLE on this day...
To Huey & Wei (the Ooo-ays)...HAPPY BIRTHDAY, GIRLSSSS!!!! XD
To two wonderful friends -
May many wishes to both of you on this special day. Wishing you abundant blessings, joy & cheer to last you another year... Love ya both!

Some pictures taken @ The Curve earlier this evening:-

Wei + THE PRESENT (Jamie Oliver's - Jamie's Kitchen Cookbook) @ Sakae Sushi, The Curve

she lurvvvvvessss it!!

Wei & I @ Slippery Senoritas, The Curve

'Squint-Man'(only available >drinks) + Wei

And while I'm at it, I might as well post some pics of old...

Us @ Cynna Bar, 20th May '06

The Natural 'Dutch Lady' (Holding her cow... & her pee) :P

Kyren-Cutie 'Singh'

- Pics courtesy of TW's camera phone

2006-05-29T09:49:00.000+08:00

How much BUBBLE WRAP is too much BUBBLE WRAP?

How much can we guard yourself from hurts that might come towards you? Can you ever be too careful?

I'd say 'YES'.

It can be a bit too much till we find yourself wound up in a fix of bubble wrap struggling to get out. And when we do, we realize that we've missed out on something because we were too busy entangling ourselves from our own web.

When some people express any indifferences, we'd take it personally & quickly make a run for it as fast as we can to re-wrap ourselves cos we're AFRAID!!
At times, we feel that we're stuck in an unescapable moment where u need to be open/vulnerable to people and again, we run!
You see, we know the bubble-wrap will eventually wear-off but sometimes, we just need to know/feel that there is a layer of PROTECTION.

the circle:
bubble.wrap --> bursts/wears.off --> run

Question is - How FAR can we run?

I think I can safely say that all of us have our own 'bubble-wraps' in different shades & sizes to shield us from the 'what-nots'.

Recently, He has told me that HE will be my bubble-wrap... *mixed expressions*

I KNOW!! It's weeeeirrrrd huh???!!!

It's weird how God reveals silly things like that to us BUT nevertheless I'm glad He's still ever so reassuring... xD

2006-05-24T11:41:00.000+08:00

................
nights are going to seem longer than usual...
no more Prison Break-ing, no more Desperate Housewives-ing, no more Lost-ing, no more One Tree Hill-ing, no more OC-ing...
****DEEP SIGHS****

YOU! Yes, YOU!!!
aNy pLaNs @ nite??? Call me k?????!!! Hehehe...

2006-05-04T23:41:00.000+08:00

I had several peculiar yet spectacular experiences during this church camp in PD... I knew He was trying to speak to me... time and again...
But at most times, ignorance was the most convenient way out. It was also a mixture of confusion, doubt and selfishness.

For some time now I've been dealing with certain things in my life and questions keep piling up on more questions and I never dared to ask about my faith. WHY? Because it'd seem ludicrous cos I've been a Christian for the longest time...

Anyway, back to camp. The speaker, Bruce Collin (who had the voice and the appearance if Mrs Doubtfire as Sean I says *teehehehe*), raised an issue of some people having reservations about their faith. He also said that we understand the faith in the mind but somehow, it hasn't impacted the heart. Instantly, I felt my heart sinking!! IT'S ME!! I was supposed to renew my faith... don't worry. I did. Just at my own time and place - in my room after the session. Rooted issues were raised, i heard voices of guilt and the common W.H.Y-s came streaming rapidly through my head and SUDDENLY, a familiar verse which says something like "a sheep should know its shepherd's voice". This isn't the first time I've heard it...

"You've hardened your heart to receive...
You've closed your mind to discerning...
You've shut my voice from your hearing...
I have no way in.
WHY???"

The answer is :
Lord, I've been afraid. I'm afraid of being hurt again. I'm afraid I might fail You again. I'm afraid I might not make it out from the wilderness (the wilderness I ran into)...And sometimes, being lost alone is better than being found and risking being hurt again and having to back into the wilderness...

But then you know what? God then told me to refer to Isaiah 53 and it says, “We all like sheep have gone astray, each of us has turned to his own way…”. We follow their voice and become like those sheep who fix their eyes so intently on the tantalizing grass of sin that we wander away from Him and find ourselves in danger!

I have left myself stranded in the wilderness for the longest time because I refused to remember the promises which He has placed in my life...There should be more to life that being in the wilderness!! I mean, it's not that I can't get out of it. It's that I've deliberately abandoned myself there for this long!!!

“This is the life?” No! Because Jesus said that He has come that we may have life, and have it to the FULL. There’s the life – the full and satisfied new life in Christ! The life lived in the full and free forgiveness of Christ is the COMPLETELY satisfied life.
The best part was when He reassured me that full life means that all the disappointments and all the hard times that we may have yet to face in our lives here on this earth lose their bitterness in the sweetness of Jesus words, "Come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” I'm tired of running/hiding... I wanna just come 'home' & rest...

Jesus who summons us to live in His GRACE and FORGIVENESS. It is He who comforts our souls by assuring us over and over again that our wandering as blind sheep has been forgiven through His blood shed on the cross.

The next day, I heard His voice. I recognized it. I loved it.

CONGRATULATIONS, COUS!!!

2006-04-26T17:29:00.000+08:00

Congratulations to a happy couple, Vincent & my dear cousin sister, Hoon Imm...

A girl dreams about her wedding,
-that blissful special day.
So much excitement and anxiety,
Over what to do and say.

You've found your perfect mould,
Who will love and cherish you.
Your loving vows unite your souls,
Creating one heart shared by two.

Marriage is a promise to compromise,
Situations no matter how great or small.
Though life is never perfect,
True love surpasses all.

Give freely and unconditionally,
Enjoy a life filled with all the loving.
I wish you a wonderful marriage
With sweet joys that make life endearing.

From this day forward, may you honour your oath,
I wish everlasting happiness to you both.

2006-04-19T00:49:00.000+08:00

my GREATEST FEAR being in the corporate society...

fresh landscape

2006-04-19T00:27:00.000+08:00

thought the old look was getting a wee bit mundane so i decided to change it a lil... hehehe... it's similar but it gives a fresher look ;)

2006-04-17T10:37:00.000+08:00

Easter is a time of love,
A time of death and pain undone,
So we may know the power of
The love that lives in everyone.
Each love we feel, unstained and free,
Redeems us--as with you and me.

Happy Easter!

2006-03-31T10:28:00.000+08:00

Still Storms

A still walk in winter.
Everything seems clear amidst the storm that is to come.
Will it come?
Will we allow it to pull us away or should we stand and fight a good fight?
Has it come too soon or has it come too late?

I hate storms. It weakens every part of me.
But it has awaken me...
The thought of it makes me shudder in fear of the unknowing.
Should I embrace its coming or ignore its time?
Should I continue imagining a smooth sail or should we take on the storm?
It seems to be an inevitable choice.

The silence is deafening. There are signs of rapid winds.
We'll be at the edge of numbness...
What would you do? What would you WANT to do?
Be a coward and live a little longer under false pretense?
Be a soldier, build a fortress to protect what ought to be protected?
Or alternatively...
Take a chance on a different route all together?

Is life all about taking chances?
Really...???
I can't make the decision. It'll be paralyzing.
Perhaps I will leave this one to God.

Sunset at Jimbaran Bay.... :D

2006-03-20T16:56:00.000+08:00

Hahaha...Messing around with the fisherman!! :D

2006-03-20T16:33:00.000+08:00

Funny riteeee??? We were laughing our heads off when we took these picturesss!

2006-03-20T15:20:00.000+08:00

These pics are all from Tanah Lot... It's really beautiful to see the sunset there...

2006-03-20T15:09:00.000+08:00

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Bali Bali Bali picsssss at last!

2006-03-20T14:45:00.000+08:00

In most pics, you would only see Lionel and myself cos his cousins are having they're own agenda - SHOPPING!!!! But since it was the first time in Bali for both of us, we went sightseeing on ourselves. Will post his cousin's sets of pictures when I get them (IF they're half as nice as ours!!!)

<<..these offerings are seen everywhere - outside every shop & home and inside every vehicle.. >>

<<..This is the famous 2km street near our hotel with lil shops on both sides...local designers, handisraft shops, empty mamaks, etc.. >>

<<...After some shopping, we decided to make a pit stop at the all-famous Warung Made, Jln. Legian (they have another outlet in Jln. Kuta but it's not the same without my favourite Pork Chop with Apple Sauce...YUMMY!!!! Best pork chop EVER!!!...>>

<<(Ubud) One of MANY templesssss in Bali.....>>

<<...It was lunch time when we arrived at Ubud so we asked the driver to take us to a famous shack where they serve supposedly the best Babi Guling in Bali. It was O.K. laaa...>>

<<...On the way out of Ubud (after we bought our painting) towards Kintamani (highlands to see the volcano)..>>

<<...The highlands of Kintamani. A beautiful sight of the volcano but it was a cloudy day, thus, the pics didn't turn out as well as we expected...>>

25+1... bleagh

2006-03-03T12:26:00.000+08:00

Overdue post... but in any case, here it is:-

Whee... Happy Birthday to me! Happy Birthday to me! :)
Yesterday, these fellas were around to celebrate with me my 26th birthday...so sweet of them! We went for seafood at Pantai Seafood, Kg Kayu Ara area... The food was good but the company was better...
We adjourned to Wei's place after that and had my cake cutting ceremony - they bought me Choco Mud Cake from Secret Recipe! I soooo feel like having another slice of it now but I'm on a light b'fast & dinner diet. So, strictly no lunch for me!

Today, I received a bouquet of balloons from Lionel *smiles* (i'll thank you in person later!) Wish I could share the pics that my colleagues took with me together with a lil birthday cake which they bought me (guess what??? it was ANOTHER choco mud cake)... sooooo filling.....that will be for our tea served with green tea! mmm...

Oh, newssss....going for lunch at RED BOX Karaoke later! Colleagues wanna belanja! yaaaayyyyy....

As I was in bed....

2006-02-22T15:02:00.000+08:00

I was laying in bed last night and a sudden pressure sprung upon my heart.

Everyone seems to be so self-involved lately.
Is it bad though?

Being too much would be an issue...but really, we're all so cosily wrapped up in our own lives that we never really practice the art of building relationships. Like when was the last time I spoke to my ex-schoolmate, our leaders, our closest friends, our family? Believe me when I say I'm guilty on this charge as well.

Relationships come and go so easily we take them for granted. It's easy to have so many people around you, shower you with their attention, be there for you when you want them to but have you ever felt that sometimes those relationships are still on icy surface?

What IS really going on with their lives??
"Do I truly want to know?" Should I be interested...?? What's in it for me???
Some ppl might think I'm just nosy...some may think I'm trying to find a fault.... Some may wonder why you are taking a sudden interest in their lives...And some think it might it may put both parties in an awkward position.
Life is too short to make of what ppl think of you. Sincerity is all that matters.

*pokes self*

Someone might just fancy a conversation with YOU/ME when we simply pass them by in search for someone to breathe a meaningless conversation with ourselves - just to look like you are someone. I'm sure we can give more than a grudging smile or handshake. To disregard people is just un-nice!

After about 1 1/2hrs thinking about this in bed, God led me to a scripture:

Ecclesiates 4:1-12
Again I looked ans saw all the oppression that was taking place under the sun.
I saw the tears of the oppressed-and they have no comforter;
power was on the side of their oppressors - and they have no comforter.
And I declared that the dead, who had already died, are happier than the living,
who are still alive.
But better than both is he who has not yet been,
who has not seen the evil that is done under the sun.

And I saw all that labor and all achievement spring from man's envy of his neighbour.
This too is meaningless, a chasing after the wind.
The fool folds his hands and ruins himself.
Better one handful with tranquility than two handfuls with toil and chasing after the wind.

Again I saw something meaningless under the sun:
There was a man alone;
her had neither a son nor brother.
There was no end to his toil,
yet his eyes were not content with his wealth.
"For whom am I toiling?," he asked, "and why am I deprieving myself of enjoyment?"
This too is meaningless and miserable business!

Two are better than one, because they have a good return of their work:
If one falls down, his friend can help him up.
But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up!
Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm.
But how can one keep warm alone?
Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves.
The cord of three strands is not quickly broken.

This passage isn't so much a revelation as it is an reminder.
A reminder to stop toiling in gain for selfish desires. HE will provide for all our needs if we submit the little that we have.
A simple reminder that people just need a true friends who will be there for us.

SEAN I AND JUDITH AT DELIRIOUS CONCERT

2006-02-20T09:42:00.000+08:00

I was just going through my mails and saw AYA Festival's info-email and clicked the site they provided. And then i saw 2 familiar faces! Hehehe... And wadya know??!! Hehehe...

2006-02-09T23:59:00.000+08:00

It's been a looooong day and night at work.
Can't blog much.
Not feeling well.
Tireddddd....
Feeling sickly ... esp w this impossible weather which is driving me mad!
Even more tireddddddddddddd......
Need a looooooong break.... again!
StupED ipod nano giving me problems - not helping (it hung itself at 'Disk Mode') Grrr...
And yes, there will b a tomorrow....
Which is yet another loooooong and tiring day....

Wanna switch???

2006-01-23T18:21:00.000+08:00

Job update!
I got the job... and my 'devious' plan worked... But I'd say in totality, God worked through it all. Usually, we tend to miss out on the little doings but when I really sit to ponder, I'm amazed that He has brought me through thick and thin in my career path. Truly...
Yeah...of cos I can't help complaining and whining about the neverending stress and pressure - it's really unbearableeeee. Plus, i'm in a.d.v.e.r.t.i.s.i.n.g. Actually worse cos i'm in m.e.d.i.a and I have to deal with all these numbers and figures. Ok, i think i'm on the verge of complaining again :P *sTOPppppppssss*

In any case, I've got a lot to thank God for *smiles*
- my cute mom (who can really get on my nerves sometimes...but i guess it's payback??)
- my DAD (he TRIES to crack me up with his silly jokes but I laugh along anyway)
- my two irritating but loving brothers (need I say more) *scratch*scratch*
- my endearing boyfriend (he's just the CUTEST ever! is he cuter than me tho?? *nyahaha*sobs*sobs*)

I guess at the end of a bad day, I'll still go back to these people and they're the God-given souls who'll make a horrible day turn into a ...mmm...a not-so-bad day... They are the ones who are behind be all the time but guess what? I don't think I appreciate them enough...
*BIG SMILES*
RUV Y'ALL!!!!!

2006-01-11T17:31:00.000+08:00

Have I ever mentioned how difficult it is being a twenty-something?
Well, it is... it difficulty escalates when you start your working life.
I mean, I've been working for the past 3 years and still, it doesn't seem to be getting better. It's getting worse. What makes it worse is that I'm being exploited (grrr...) and I can't do anything about it....

Ugh... Life was much simpler when we were kids. The responsibilities and commitments just seem unbearable sometimes. Seriously, it never crossed my mind that I'd have to be paying for my insurance coverage, petrol, toll charges, tithe, housing loan, mobile phone bills, monthly allowance for my parents, living expenses, pak-toh expenses, reno savings, furniture savings, credit card bills, baju allowances... *sigh* Levels of commitment increase as we grow older by the year, cost of living rise by the day, stress levels spiral up by the minute! Must we REALLY grow up?

But in spite of all these issues that we face each new day, I must say it is sometimes exciting to wait in anticipation and see what WILL happen every day.

TODAY, I received a call for an interview which I will be attending this Friday at 1pm. I seriously hope I get it cos if I do get the job, I'd get a salary increase of 36% *nyek*nyek* The perks are great and the benefits are greater! But I won't be working there... cos if I do, I'll have to work till 8-9pm on average (I get to go home at 6pm sharp now).

But here's my devious plan:
;)

2005-12-27T15:53:00.000+08:00

Note to all who were interested in the NaNo (2G):
We will not be selling the NaNo we won after all. Lionel could not get hold of the guy who was supposed to sell to us the 4G so we have unanimously decided not to sell it.

We apologize to the Anon whom we almost sold it to.
Congratulations to Victor who has successfully purchased a 4G for a rather good price! ;)

Thank you.

2005-12-25T15:48:00.000+08:00

Ho...Ho...Ho...

Merry Christmas to YOU!!!
May your days be filled with peace, laughter & cheer,
love, merriment and anything sweet!

Love,
Chris

NANO nanonano NANO

2005-12-15T04:19:00.000+08:00

ok ok... here it goes...

I nominated Lionel for Head & Shoulders - Scratch Attach Contest. Some guy called Junior called me on Tuesday, close to midnight and told me that we won a years' supply of Head & Shoulders! They said they would pick me up at 6:30am, go to Lionel's place, barge into his room while he's asleep and jump on his bed, etc etc... so I quickly called Lionel's mum that very night and pre-empted her on what's gonna happen early tomorrow morning.

Anyway, the Hitz.fm land cruiser came to pick me up at 7:20am (i was sooooo put off cos they were soooooo unpunctual!!). Anyway, I assured the Hitz crew that we would still be fast asleep but to my surprise, he opened the door for us!! GRRRR.... someone spoiled our surprise... *sobs* Anyway, Junior told us to play along while he called the station to announce the winners, etc etc... the crew was pretending to barge into the hse and surprise lionel and we just played along... he did most of the work anyway...

Bottomline, we were one out of the 10 lucky ppl to win an Ipod Nano!! Wheeeee....

And guess what??? I'm planning to sell it for RM600. The market value is RM969 (http://www.applemalaysia.com.my/ipod/)... So if you know of anyone who's interested, just give me a ringer!! ;)

2005-12-14T07:14:00.000+08:00

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2005-12-10T09:23:00.000+08:00

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2005-12-09T00:35:00.000+08:00

Can't sleep... boyfriend is in Singapore... *sobs* MISS HIM!!!! :(

Anyway, thank God for GSCs!
Just got back from a good movie - Perhaps Love (starring Ji Jin Hee, Jacky Cheung & Takeshi Kaneshiro, Zhou Xun).

Why do I say it's a good movie?
Because of its a good script, a good director & a beautiful leading lady.

Perhaps Love is a movie filled with mesmerising set designs & glamorous circus performances...

The story revolves around a love triangle wrapped in a movie-within-a-movie.

OK. For those who hasn't and don't intend to watch it, u can read the following comment:
Somehow, I wish that when Takeshi said he was going to leave Zhou Xun for good, he would!!! He should've just gone and left her...deserted her and never came back...as how she did to him! That'd would be such a great storyline!!!

Ok. Getting too worked up about it already.... guess it's just the Lionel-Withdrawal-Syndrome acting up...

nites...to ALL!!!

Quirks or Idiosyncrasies

2005-12-08T00:12:00.000+08:00

Hmm... 10 quirks or idiosyncrasies huh??...Huey, this shouldn't be too difficult... kekeke...

1) If u ever come across any broken chocolate bars in the supermarket - just think of me *grin*

2) Every morning when I get outta bed, I'll walk downstairs and knock myself out again for (at least) 5-minutes on my parents bed before I brush up :)

3) Haha... Bejeweled doesn't sound too bad. What's crazy is that I've got a thing for Neopets!! Everyday when it hits 4pm, seven tabs will be opened for my daily Neopets collection...(oooh...and the Neopets' games!! It's sooo much better than D-O-T-A!!! Kevin will attest to that...lol...)

4) OK. This isn't new to many ppl - I REALLY get irked when I see anything out of it's original place - may it be sushi covers on the belt, disorganized product displays on shelves, half covered containers, having Coke cans on Pepsi's shelves! Ugh... it's blows me away!! And I'd gladly putt all of the above back into place :) ... if not for Lionel! Grrr...

5) I love the scent of baby powder so much I powdered my office carpet... *BIG smile*

6) Whenever I'm at a fast food restaurant, it's always the fries I chow down first. After which, I'm usually too stuffed to feed myself anything else... but always manage to anyways!

7) U see this hairstyle I've been carrying for umpteen of years - it's evergreen! Can't seem to get myself psyched to have anything else *sobs* Any ideas?? :P

8) I love cleaning the insides of a mouse. That being the kinda mouse you're holding on to right now? It just gives me such satisfaction!! *deep sigh*

9) Somehow, I don't like wearing rings. It makes me feel like I can't have the freedom to go about my daily doings, no???!!
(Hopefully, it won't deter Lionel from presenting THE ring to me cos that's exceptional *smiles*)

10) I LLLOOOOOVVVVVVEEEEE the smell of Christmas!! I think Christmas is the most-joyest celebration of the year. It's the day that marks the birth of Jesus, a day with all-smiles, a day filled with love, an occasion to buy a new dress, a day of laughter & cheer... I just can't wait :)

My next 5 victims are... in alphabetical order ...
- Becky
- Eddie
- Des
- Jessica
- Joshua

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2005-12-03T11:23:00.000+08:00

Lionel's ex-colleague & friend, Raymond, who also helped us with our home mortgage took us to the lawyer's office this morning to sign the legal documents and letter of offer from Citibank. Well, now all we need to do is pay our monthly installments... ;-) which will now make a hole in our pockets *sniff* but it's something we have both committed to do together.

HOME LOAN APPROVED!!!

2005-11-30T16:06:00.000+08:00

I Don't Want To Go

2005-11-25T16:26:00.000+08:00

You changed my world
When You came to me
You drove a passion
In my soul down deep
Lord, to follow You in everything

I don't want to go somewhere
If I know that You're not there
'Cause I know that me without You is a lie
And I don't want to walk that road
Be a million miles from home
'Cause my heart needs to be where You are
So I don't want to go

So come whatever
I'll stick with You
I'll walk, You'll lead me
Call me crazy or a fool
For forever I promise you that...

Without Your touch
Without Your love
Filling me like an ocean
For Your grace is enough
Enough for me
To never want to go somewhere
If I know that You're not there

By By Jess Cates & Yancy Wideman (Avalon)

Happy Birthday LioneL!!!!!!

2005-11-23T12:04:00.000+08:00

Tribute to Lionel's Quarter Century Birthday!!!

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( (")(") Birthday
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( 'o' ) Hope you have a fantabulous
birthday!
(,(o)(o) With lotsa love!
And a big birthday cake!
And a big bear hug!
And of course, presents!

Love you!!! ;)

I found out someone's secret...

2005-11-22T17:49:00.000+08:00

Does this girl look like someone you know???? *grin*
Hehehe...I stumbled upon this pic and realised that.... Desmond got a girl-girl edi wana eh!

OUR FIRST HOME - Unit B-07-01 smiles

2005-11-19T22:53:00.000+08:00

The unit we wanted was still there and we bought it!!!!
We have officially bought a home together!! :))

OUR home will be ready before mid 2007.
OUR home is at Opal Damansara, Sunway Damansara (opposite Palm Springs, D'sara Perdana).
OUR home has 3 bedrooms & 2 bathrooms.

*smiles* His family & relatives were with us at the 'signing'. Hahaha... which they made seem like it was the signing wedding ceremony thingy! His mum was so excited... Hmm, weirdddd.... But in a good way I guess...

Somehow, it seems like a big step cos it's not like purchasing a top! It's like buying a house! It all spells R-E-S-P-O-N-S-I-B-I-L-T-Y!!! I'm excited yet afraid not knowing what will happen but I'm sure it's all in God's good hands... *smiles*

To whoever you are... *HUGZZZZZZ*
Happy for us??? Betta be! ;)

Sunshine Home

2005-11-19T13:17:00.000+08:00

Grr.. crazy blogspot! Now I can't seem to customize my fonts or my font size anymore!! And I couldn't be bothered to change to something else now I've just gotten used to using Blogspot. Grr...grr...

Well, it's a hot & sunny morning/afternoon and I've just come from Sunshine Home (Old Folks Home) with my mum. Wish I had a camera *grin* The old people were....how should i say.....hmm...CUTE!! ;) In the midst of a cooking demonstration, an old man takes out his harmonica and starts to entertain everyone... Hehehe... and everyone started to clap to the beat. Sigh... After the demonstration, we had to serve them 'good' food (aaackkkk...) It was tasteless! Good food always taste bad!
Hehehe...another funny incident was when we had to con this uncle to pee! Hehehe... He is apparently very stubborn when it comes to going to the potty. Well, since he loves chocolate, it was our bait! I think I'll go back to help them during their Christmas party. I hope then I don't have to wash dishes for 1 1/2hrs like I did today.

I'm at Lionel's now... have to organize our finances to pay for the downpayment of the Opal. I hope it's not sold yet! There's only one more unit left (the rest are beyond our budget)! Pray that it's still there... :)

2005-10-30T22:44:00.000+08:00

We've started talking about buying a house... YES!! Big move for us!
We don't have the capital for the initial down payment but my parents are willing to fork that out until we are able to pay them back. So currently, we are looking for a place that both of us actually like. I personally like Tee Wei's place but since it's a completed property and if we were to buy it NOW, we'd have to rent it out until we get married! And only God knows how they'll treat 'our' first home... ;)

So, we have decided to look for a nice and cosy place in a decent location which can be ready by at least 2007... Perhaps Sterling PJ, but we want to be sure so we will be scouting around now... Sounds like a big step hor? Yes, but why 2007??? I'll be old and wrinkly by then *sobs* *humming "It's all 'bout the $$$"*

My advice to those in the early 20s, START SAVING UP!!!!

2005-10-27T13:27:00.000+08:00

Time and again we go through the motions of change.

As we grow, the size of tides increase, the constant wind of change, the climate transformation, etc. But through it all, we still need to live life through the good, bad and the evil.

But how? Because as we grow, our resistance to challenge enhances, we manage to adapt to the relentless change in our surroundings, we manage to live up to the expectations of others even though we loathe about not wanting to. There are just so many things which we do to please ourselves and others - The sense of achievement, the warm feeling of being able to help people who are in need, the incessant praises we receive from friends and relatives about how well we were raised and have grown up to be.
... NO DOUBT! We've worked so hard to come this far hence, surely there'll be this great gratification which will over-whelmed us...and yet, even with all this, something is missing??

YES.

Question:
What is the ultimate goal in life again despite all that we have created for ourselves???

'Family' Dinner

2005-10-22T22:22:00.000+08:00

Lookie-lookie... Yumms...
Anyway, what you see below are the yummi-licious array of food we prepared for dinner. I invited Becky & Pheng over for dinner and everyone has to cook something...
Well, Steve & Pheng cooked something they call 'Fish-Swish-Roll' ;) it wasn't bad laa... hehehe...

Becky made Chicken Rendang (Becky's specialty), Kevin made 'Pai Kuat' & 'Chew Pai Tofu' ... You can't actually see the 'Pai Kuat' in the pic cos I can't seem to upload the whole pic of it...

I went to Tee Wei's place to teman her while her new furniture came and I was late so only cooked the vege (Hong Kong Kai Lan, also my FAV veg) :P
Lionel made drinks... Iced Ribena Longan... MMmmm... *slurp* No pic for that tho.... soweee...

Spring Day's Obsession

2005-10-18T19:14:00.000+08:00

There is a crazy obsession going on with us (Tee Wei & I) with 2 Korean actors from Spring Day (drama series). We are head-over-heels for the 2 brothers:-
Older bro: Gao En-Hao (real name: Ji Jin-Hee) - Left hand pic
Younger bro: Gao En-Xie (real name: Jo In-Seung) - Right hand pic

Personally, I like both but Jo In-Seung is just IRRESISTABLE!!

IN ANY CASE, Lionel will always be on top of my list la, hor??? *muax* ... But every now and then, a girl's mind needs to drift off to some fantasy island. "Why?", you ask... Well, let's just say ......................... "COS THESE MEN DON'T EXIST IN REALITY!!!". There..... reality check for all of us ;)
Rare concoction: Good-looking, moderately sensitive, unafraid to be foolish for a girl....in public, noble, caring, loving, cute, completely unselfish and .... a Christian! Well, no hands raised I see. Oooh, except the one on the top right! *smiles* Yes, you... the one drinking the mineral water! Aaah... *wo kwai yao fong le* (translation: I'm gonna go crazy soon)

I should have a poll for these two guys la!

Now, we're gonna borrow another Korean drama series from Janelle called Full House. And this time, we're limiting ourselves to 3 CDs a nite. Hehehe....

(Personal note: Sorry, dear. I'll have to neglect you for another term till I complete this phase of obsession ;)) Yes, it'll just be a phase... promise!!

2005-10-12T14:41:00.000+08:00

Working has been hectic lately. Boss is such a super 'kan chiong', crazy woman! Keeps demanding for something due yesterday! Grrr.... Thankfully, I have my dearest to keep me sane ;)

Huey 'ciao' oredi... *sobs* ... But since you're coming back in December *wipes tears*, it's gonna be a'ight!

Owh... there's just so much to catch up on now that summer has come - The O.C (Season 3), Desperate Housewives (Season 2), Lost (Season 2) & The Apprentice!! Hehehe... every Saturday, Lionel and I would have TV-Series'-Marathon which is currently, one of the activities which we can do together. Before, it was just FRIENDS. With Bittorrent, everything is possible! *nyek*

Will be going for pasar ramadhan tonight at TTDI. Mmmm... I can smell the satay, ayam percik and the nasi lemak...*chomp*chomp*chomp*

No complaints - life's goooooood....

M&C - The Wedding Singers a.k.a Crashers

2005-10-08T23:23:00.000+08:00

We were assigned to be Velda & Raymond's wedding singers! Gosh... It was a scary day.
We practiced our parts and sat ourselves down 2nd aisle from the front. And the whole thing with the worship, sermon & vows went past so quickly I could hardly catch my breath!
The time came and we gave it our very best! And guess what was the outcome of our very best??? As we trembled, we went off key and sang wrong parts (as in, she sang my part!) Hehehe... But overall, we were great! Just hoping the videographers in some miraculous way, missed or cut our 1st verse! Cos the rest was beautiful! Hehehe...

Well, to my sidekick, Mabel, thanks for being such a blessing, encouragement & friend! Love you, girl!
To Marky-Mark, also thanks for the boost in confidence. It really helped!
To the wonderful cameraman, Lionel, job well done! Next time, move the camera to shoot other ppl also k? ;)

2005-09-01T12:08:00.000+08:00

Sigh... it's been a long month since Lionel got his new game - Guild Wars. Initially, everything was alright until we completed the whole season 2 of The O.C. It was purposeless going to his place then cos everytime I was there, he'd be obsessing it. Let's just say it wasn't normal for me to just sit and stare at him while he's doing his thang!

I understand the works of boys and their toys.... Just that it wasn't him to leave me for something else abruptly. Well, all has been taken care of now. We've had our chat and it's all good!

Ooooh.... i love Baskin's 31st special! Every 31st of the month, Baskin has a 31% offer! And yesterday (Merdeka Day), we went there just to find soooo many ppl queueing up with numbers for their turn. You must sooo try the Chocolate Mousse Royale! It is to die for... It's so creamy and chewy!!!! Mmmmm....

2005-07-28T10:27:00.000+08:00

Bad lighting else, it would've been a good picture :P

(From left to right: Jess, me, Huey)

Jess just came back from Perth - well, sorta and I can't believe Huey will be leaving soon (Sept 15, 2005) *sobs*sobs*sobs* Yeah, I know it's like a month away but I'm missing her already! But I just wanna wish you all the best, Huey. Call me ok... since it's so cheap to call home! Luv ya, girl!! Come home for visits k!!

expectations...

2005-06-20T13:40:00.000+08:00

We just got back from Zech's grand dad's memorial... While we were there, I had the strangest discussion with the most unexpected person - Raj. We were just talking about how guys, at the age of 25, still don't know what they really want to do in life. Where is their plan??!!

Anyway, I brought the subject matter home, still feeling aggravated cos I'm not sure where my relationship with Lionel was going at this stage. I called him just to tell him about how everything went and storied him about my conversation with Raj. And it became a very heated discussion which turned to sobs (from me of cos). Lionel was throwing questions in the past eg. why am I always jealous when he gets a higher salary/higher position. I cleared it up by stating that I've gone PAST that already and the reason I used to get really upset was only because I have the industry qualifications and experience and not to mention that I SLOG for the company! Whereas, he came into the industry without any qualification or experience and got a higher pay...which then led to a promotion and increament! Thing was... I worked 200x harder than he did and never got anything in return from the company.

But yes, I was jealous... but no longer... I do want the best for him and now we need to move on...

I hung up with him still in my upset mood, still crying so I chose not to talk esp when chances of me saying things I don't mean increase.

I then went up to bed, SMS-ed him - wished him goodnite and he replied saying he was outside my house :P

Well, I went out red-eyed and all and we talked things through. I told him that I would have to lower my expectations of him as he will not be able to secure much at his age. I just expected more of guys cos I was looking at my bros as examples. They have got their lives planned ahead and they know where they're headed to. Well... he also said he's got plans to buy a house when he gets sufficient $$$.

I suppose at the end of it all, we shouldn't be afraid to speak about anything even if its about our future after being with each other for so long...

By His Grace...

2005-06-14T13:36:00.000+08:00

I'm old! I went for my first meeting in Huey's LF. Boy... did I have the biggest culture shock ever! I knew the girls individually but just didn't expect them to be so chatty throughout the meeting. I suppose it was just beyond my expectations...

Nonetheless, it was a good meeting. For worship, we were made to write a poem/draw something which we are thankful for for the past week. I wanted to write a poem but just don't know why... nothing came out! Eventually, I drew an apple... Why an apple? Hmm... it's a loooong story. So nevermind that!

Anyways, the lesson of the nite was that we don't need to strive to earn righteousness from God. In spite of our countless attempts to be 'holy' in the eyes of God. The Bible says that so long we TRUST HIM, He will pour His rightousness to us. Employers give you a wage/salary because it is an obligation. On the other hand, all we need to do is to TRUST HIM - trust that He will fulfill our needs, trust that He will protect us, trust that HE and ONLY HE can provide for us our every desire at the very end. We don't need to compete with anyone for His rightourness. As youths, we try to be someone, we try to show others that we are able... but are we really able without Him?

It seems as if there's a corporate ladder we are climbing in church. Why?
It seems as if people are trying to appease leaders? To feel 'complete' when their in the 'good books'... We try! And try...and try...we can continue trying for years and get no where...
Because God isn't the centre of your life. God isn't the centre of my life at the moment. Don't get me wrong... I've stopped trying to 'achieve' or be someone that others expect me to be. I've grown tired...

It's been too many years sitting idly by as a watchman. And it is clearly time to find Him. If you're in this position, perhaps you should too because there's no joy in just sitting. As much as I refuse to be the 'prodigal son', I am... and Dad has been waiting for me... and it hurts me to see Him wait some more. He has given me my space and I've been empty without Him for years...

And I'm going BACK...

2005-06-07T11:52:00.000+08:00

Love is strong yet delicate. It can be broken.

To truly love is to understand this.

To be in love is to respect this.

- Stephen Packer -

Volcanic Eruptions!!

2005-06-07T11:43:00.000+08:00

CRABSSSSS... Mom, dad, Aunty Soon Choong and I went to Greenview for crabs last night and we had the MOooooOsssT delicious crabs!! We ordered 3 crabs and they were HUGE (and of course we paid the price for it as well)!

While trying to pick what's left in the shell, I was thinking about the damage it would do to my high cholestrol level especially with it being in the family for generations ... and at the same time, thinking of the layers when I look down at myself...

It seems as if nothing could stop me from crabs... What is it with crabs anyway??!! Oooohh...

In any case, I was bloated...BUT satisfieeeed :D

As soon as we got home, I started to walk around as if I was marking every territory in the house till my dad gave me a strange grin :P I assumed it was signalling me to 'STOP ITTT!!!' ... which I eventually did when the inflation in the 'center kingdom' begin to go down...

I went to bed at 2am after having our bed-talk but strangely, I just couldn't sleep. After a while, I started to toss and turn. And when I did, it felt as is the crabs flowed towards the same direction. And I kept tossing hoping to get rid of the feeling but it never went away...

It was 4am - still tossing! Did I regret having crabs??? NOPE!! I told myself, "It'd go away soon" and I managed to fall asleep eventually :D but I had frequent wakes in between feeling the same way.

And at 6:32am, I WOKE!!!! This time, the crabs were crawling all over my tummy. I wanted to slam a hammer onto my stomach and get the crabs to die PERMANANTLY!! Instead, I went to the loo and *push*, everything came out!! Aaaaah... it was a watery relief... but nevertheless, a good one!

To my surprise, I managed to drag my feet to work. Believe me, I don't know what brought me here... I've got no work to do (hence, the blogging), no clients to see, no boss to attend to (she's in Aussie), no colleague to teman me (on wed-prep leave)... and guess what??? I'm hungry!

Oh well... I might just leave for home early today! :)

Happy Birthday Huey & Tee Wei!!!!

2005-05-30T10:59:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Huey & Tee Wei!!!!

Huey-Huey!! Have a great time partyin' away but don't forget to hit the nook cos your finals is next week!! Well dearie, hope you like the CD perfume TW and I got you! It should cover for nx yeah when you're away in 'Engrand'... Hehehe... *muuuuuax* *huuuuggzzz*

Auntie Wei-Wei... Happy Birthday to you!! Happy Birthday to you!! Happy Birthday to TW!! Happy Birthday to you!! YEsssss....yesss....got your new house keys already huh? That's like a bday present on its own! I guess we'll be seeing you there more often after its reno has been completed eh! Well, ENJOY YOUR DAY, GIRL!!! :D

Birthday Dinners at Alexis!

2005-05-28T23:58:00.000+08:00

Pictures from the bday dinner for Huey and Jess at Alexis, Great Eastern Mall (Jln Ampang)...

Church Camp 2005 - Seremban

2005-05-24T10:52:00.000+08:00

What a cool church camp it has been! We had it in Allson Klana Resort, Seremban... as we did last year! But this year was different cos we had a party theme of '70's Nite' or you can call it 'Retro Nite' or even Saturday Nite Fever! Hehehe... I was in Team Lavender (which was supposed to be purple). (FYI, Orange Team won this year).

ANYWAYS, what I liked about this year's church camp was that the sermons were short yet precise! (Malcolm Du Plesis was our speaker).
1) Authenticity
-As a church unit, we are authentic. As a person, we are authentic. We should not conform to what others want us to be/do or what they think we should be/do. We ought to know who we are in Christ and from that knowing, LIVE it!
2) Discovering reasons as a church & an individual why we are in CLGC
- There was a sense of freedom when everyone was given the opportunity to speak up - Reasons why we came to CLGC, reasons why we are still in CLGC (in spite of what has happened to the church) and what do we want to see changed while we are still here.
As every one were taking turns to turn in their views, I felt such a burst of freedom amongst us as a church. Many things were pent up and was re-surfaced which was soooooo good! Because I believe that as we move towards rebuilding this broken foundation, we need to understand the fundamentals of how to build before proceeding to stacking bricks where leaders THINK/ FEEL it should be...in the same sense as marketing - we need to understand the market before marketing the new brand. Hence, a focus group needs to be in place.
To answer the questions above... for me, I came to CLC because my mom brought us here. I'm still here because I know in my heart that I am called to serve where He has placed me and I'm not ready to leave cos this place has been my church, my home...and even my playground :) And I've grown to love it and love the people in it based on the relationships which has been formed.
3) Learn not to take offense in other peopls' words/actions
(I think it speaks for itself)

As for Retro Nite, it was super fun!!! We danced the night away...Unfortunately, Lionel wasn't around to enjoy the night with us. He was only there for dinner and had to leave for his futsal tourney back in KL... Yep, he came back by 12:45am... :)

All in all, we had a blast! Wish I had pictures to prove it but I would have to 'sangkut' from someone else first...hehehe... :P

2005-05-09T11:07:00.000+08:00

How sweet it is to be loved by You...

2005-05-09T01:46:00.000+08:00

I haven't reached mid life and already I'm feeling the pains of being an adult. One word comes to mind after reaching 25 - RESPONSIBILITIES!!!

Some say after stepping into another age bracket is like stepping into an entirely different dimension. Well, after being in this 'different dimension' for 2 months, I must admit that my perspective of life has changed and life goes on...

Life has definitely changed... I'm not whining about the sorrows of being adult cos there are joys that come with it. So, it's fine... Thing is, I really do miss my childhood - days when live about in ignorance (well, mostly anyway). As they say, ignorance is bliss - Yet, time waits for no one and I know it is MY time to stand up and face the roaring challenges which lie ahead. Be it in my career, family, relationships or ministry, I know that He will guide me through this journey.

And knowing they will be there for me through thick & thin...
He who steers this course of life... My Provider, God
My fuel and motivation to move on... My 'bestest' friend and the joy of my life, Lionel
Who provides me unconditional love & covering... My wonderful parents
Who will be there to protect me... My annoying but loving brothers
Who will be there to listen at times of trouble... My dearest girl friends

To all of you, a great, big 'thank you'... for having been there with me through the years, through times of happiness & times of distress... Love you guys to bits!! :D

Well, nevertheless, life will get more complicated as time passes but I believe that everything will fall in place at the right time.

A life of integrity & love...